Musings From The Heart
An Essay A Day For A Year
By Roe
Day 100 April 9, 2012
Our Beautiful Negative Feelings
Human beings are very advanced creatures. If you dissect the human brain, you will find
three distinct parts, the retarded part, the foolish part, and the stupid
part. If you put all three of these
parts together, you come up with nuclear warfare. Ok, I’m just kidding. But it is facetiously true. The three
distinct parts of the human brain are the reptilian brain, at the bottom of our
brain and top of the neck, which is the oldest part of our brain, and next, in
the middle, the limbic or feeling brain, which is newer and more advanced than
the reptilian, and lastly, like a toupee glued on top, the cerebral cortex, the
most advanced part and newest part of our brain, our thinking brain. Without each of the three parts of our brain
working properly and together, we become vegetables.
Human beings are in fact emotional
creatures, before we are thinking creatures.
Our reptilian brain handles all of our autonomous functions, things like
our breathing and heart pumping and digestion, and even large parts of our
other bodily functions like our evacuation and sexuality and birthing. We can all go on living without worrying
about what our reptilian brain is doing. It is called our reptilian brain
because even the most primitive reptiles have this brain, and so does every
mammal, they are not so different from our own.
We are then in actuality “limbic” or feeling, and this middle brain, the
emotional brain, functioned many, many millions of years before the first human
thought. Even today, with our fancy cortex, by the time we have a thought, it
is long after the emotion that triggered the thought. All emotions happen whether we want them to
or not, and whether we ask for them or not, and our knowledge of our emotions
happens afterwards. Our thoughts are
merely responses to emotions. Our thoughts try and control our emotions, and the
experiences of our emotions, but our emotions have already happened by the time
we think of them. Humans are emotional
creatures that think and act upon emotions.
Our “selves” or “hearts” are in actuality
limbic, or feeling. We are what we
emote, and our thinking brain is a response to our feeling. Our cerebral cortex is like a very
sophisticated tool box or computer at the service of our selves or heart, and
we are meant to “respond” in rational thought and “act” on issues of the
heart. When people become disconnected
from the original “heart”, from the heart self of Love and kindness, from
compassion and empathy, from the checks and balances systems of shame and
guilt, and doubt, and regret, things like genocide and nuclear warfare emerge,
and this time I am not joking. We humans
have largely lost connection with our true loving-heart selves, and of our
natural ability to emote from our original state of Love and perfection. Part
of this is our ridiculous, inherited religious beliefs that lead us to believe
that we are inherently flawed, and born into sin. When we are conceived, we
have the potentiality of emoting perfectly from and with Love, and then
thinking and acting from and with Love. When we suffer from terrible emotional and
psychological trauma and deprivation in the womb and during birth, and in early
childhood, and when we have unfulfilled needs, our ability to “feel”
appropriately from our limbic selves, and then “think”, and “act”
appropriately, becomes warped and skewed and amnesiatic. In terms of the survival of a species, we
become actually violent, and eventually suicidal on a species level. We are not
inherently flawed or born into sin at all, that is religious crap written for
the sake of manipulating ignorant people. We create our own flaws and defects
as parents who harm innocent children, deliberately or ignorantly. There is no such thing as sin unless we accept
our subjugation by sick people and their sick doctrines. Our hearts already contain the true meter of
what is right and true and just and moral.
Our limbic brain has a stop gap, and checks
and balances, and emergency protection system designed to protect ourselves and
others and our species, and that is the feelings of shame, and guilt, and
regret, responsibility, and remorse. We
feel these as negative feelings, but they are in fact the most important
feelings that Love has ever designed, and they are designed to help us remain
aligned in Love. When we stray from our
natural heritage and inheritance of Love, we feel shame, we feel guilt, we feel
regret, we feel responsibility, and we feel remorse. When we feel these
feelings, and when we use our formidable, top of the line super computer, called
our cerebral cortex, to limit our behavior, or to correct our transgressions
and errors, Love remains as an ideal and a reality. When we are traumatized and
deprived by our parents and the paradigm of our society, our natural checks and
balances system becomes faulty or inoperative.
When the feelings of shame, guilt, regret, responsibility and remorse do
not come, or if we fail to act upon them, we fail ourselves, we fail others, we
fail Life, and we fail Love.
The first “order of business” when we feel or
act inappropriately, is to have natural feelings of shame, guilt, regret, responsibility,
and remorse. Next, is to admit shame,
admit guilt, admit regret, admit responsibility, and admit remorse. When our reptile-limbic-cortex self realizes
and admits these negative emotions, we can then limit our behavior and actions
so as not to feel this way. If we have to throttle and restrain or suppress our
natural emotional response, we must make a note that we are not feeling in a
natural loving way because we are unhealthy, for if we emoted naturally and
healthily we would not have to be managing our emotions.
If in
fact we are retarded, foolish, or stupid enough to behave humanly (not
humanely), and create neutron bombs to annihilate our species, we have our
natural safety mechanism of these negative emotions to lead us to admit our
folly and destroy them and apologize to all humanity forever. (Or any other behavior or transgression that
runs contrary to our hearts). The problem
is when we do transgress our hearts and Love, and do not even feel shame, or
guilt, or regret, or responsibility, or remorse. This is called human
psychosis, and unfortunately we are living in a time, since primordial single
celled creatures, of the potentiality of global psychosis, where we do not even
feel the folly of our follies, and where we simply hurt people that hurt us,
because we are hurt like everyone else, and not feel or realize or admit it. This is fine in terms of survival when our
spear reaches 100 meters, but not when our spear is named ICBM.
Let us please honor and welcome and
appreciate and be grateful for the feelings of shame, guilt, regret, responsibility, and
remorse. They are our own personal, emotional
friends, and in effect they are us. They
are the feelings of oopses and ouches and oh-nos of our own selves, and they
are meant to be the sacred saviors of our selves, saviors of the ones we love
and don’t love, and saviors of our world and species. Here, here! to feeling
these beautiful, negative feelings, for now we may self examine, we may self
accept, we may self heal, and we may self Love.
And when we self Love, we self survive.
I am all for surviving as a self and as a species. How about you?
See you
tomorrow.
yourpersonalmuse@gm.com
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